okay so im continuing this post,
cause im kinda in the reflective mood now,
HAHA.
ah well i want to change this blog,
preferably to livejournal or dairyland or that one
energy told me about ah well.
but troublesome.
oh well anw,
aft listening to some conversations
with my relatives
i really realised
my faith's not strong,
im like a sunday catholic & stuff.
so i decided to maybe get more
involved in church,
and sometimes really just leave
it all in god's hands.
and i was really reflecting over this year,
i mean having to tell my relatives
and friends,
"oh yes i retained,another year in pj"
i mean i find that really hard
esp when i receive those kind of
blunt replies or looks
& truthfully im really scared,
scared about next year,
about a new class,
a new team,
and esp scared about the fact of whether i would actually
buck up and do well next year
academically.
or even drifting apart from
the j2 people.
somehow i realised i took
studying real lightly this year,
and just had too much fun,
i made my parents worry alot too.
ahh well,
its just sometimes you'll be in that
easily irritated and distracted mood
and not study and even get mad when
your parents nag you to study thinking that
you've got everything under control when you
actually haven't.
oh well,
its christmas and i shouldnt be in such a mood
but i promise myself that i'll
really buck up,
study hard,
and even try to give
full commitment to trainings.
which means i really got to start running
and training my slow/bad stamina.
haha.
to end on a happier note
colleen your mum's outfit's really cute,
saw it on your blog.
:D xmas suspenders.